dear God (i don't understand)

i wish i understood
i wish i understood, loving and losing
i wish i understood, longing and leaving
i wish i understood... all the things i don't understand.

the pain comes so easily
you don't have to teach tears how to fall
saying good-bye seems to come so unnaturally

why do i feel like this isn't happening?
wishing it was a nightmare.
and the people keep saying its ok... how can it be alright to feel this way?

Dear God, please explain to me... loving and losing
please explain to me longing and leaving

oh please explain to me... all these things, the things i'm too human to understand

i feel that my heart can't handle one more break.
i feel that my heart can't hold one more pain.
i feel that my heart can't survive one more attack.

Dear God, please explain these to me.
Dear God, please hold me close.
Dear God, walk me through this final good-bye

Dear God please put my heart back together
Dear God please put my heart to rest
Dear God, please remind me, what you taught me so long ago

God heal my pain, our pain, like only YOU can.

God i know that i need YOU... and YOU'RE here, always by myside
God remind me what it feels like to be whole again.
God i want to be able to smile and laugh without the guilt of surviving the lost

Dear God, let this time of grief subside and guilt fade, because today its so
fresh made

Dear God i can only ask this in you GLORIOUS name, - Amen


in memory of Grandmoma Short, uncle De, Aunt Neva, and Uncle Kermit