Sunday, July 21, 2013

she thinks (they don't notice)

she gives and she gives
she hides and she hides 
they talk and they smile 
they laugh at her jokes and smile at her puns. 
she's taking deep breaths to keep that smile on her face. 

she smiles... she really wants to cry
she laughs... she feels like she gave up a long time ago 
she wants someone to notice
she wants them to see without her pointing it out. 
she ponders giving the truth to strangers when they ask, "hi, how are you?" 

but she'll take a deep breath... and say "I'm OK, and you" 
a unless cycle of questions no one really answers she thinks. 

but my dear some do see 
they notice the deep breath
they notice the eyes 
they see the forced smile and clinched teeth.

you just think you're hiding
you just think you're not important 
you just think they don't really want to know. 

you can't read their mind... they can't read yours 
tell them 
tell someone 
yell at them 
yell at someone 
tell me 
yell at me 

break the cycle to"useless" questions 
when they ask... 
don't answer with OK/fine/good
tell them the truth 

and I'll ask 
before you lie to me again... 
tell me of the dark places you have been
the places your mind chases you to
I want to know all about those demons that make you long for an end
don't you dare sit there and tell me you're fine... thinking it's the easier thing to do.

I can see it all over your face... you're not OK 
I see more than just tear stains on your face 

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