The Time I Let Myself Grieve

Things happen when you’re just not ready

Things happen when you’re just not looking

I wasn’t prepared when it all happened

I wasn’t ready to say ok, it’s ok to go

But I said it and I meant it

I had to let you go, holding your hand

But it didn’t make it easy by any means

I promised you we’d be ok

I kissed your forehead and squeezed your hand

You moved your eyebrows up to let me know you heard me

I wasn’t ready to let go of your hand

I wasn’t ready to drop the tears that were building up

I let go of your hand and told you I keep you close

Always in my heart

You left us then

You slipped away peacefully

And I let myself fall apart, more than I’d ever done

And I knew the more I let myself grieve then

The better I'd be 

I knew the pain would ease just a little easier 

from all the other times I'd keep it locked away

I was able to say good-bye 

I was able to say good-bye and that meant the world to me